further and further we're gonna drift...deeper and deeper we're gonna sink...
it wasnt like this...never..i tried so hard not to think about it...but things...juz keep reminding me over and over again i tried to avoid it not to think but...i can run...but only for a mile...i cant hide..there aint a tree...in friendship...
some lives...of ppl who were once called ourselves...are erasing their thoughts and memories..the past about us...our school we used to call...my school is what we call now...we was what we called ourselves...me and my friends is what we call now...but..not for everyone...the once called "6al group" the ones who always gathered in front of the canteen stalls during recess...the ones who celebrated everything together in school...we used to do so many things together... as a class as a group as a team as friends...we always...always...assumed we were going to the same school...never did we thought we will separate...we always dreamed of going to the same class..but now we're not even in the same goddamn school...yes its true i nvr complained...till now...cause i always...at least i always tried to believe...we'll be the bestest of the best buddy buddies in the world forever our lives...
why are we drifting? why are we distaning? why do we feel tt our friends..arent tt friends we used to call? why are we starting to worry? why are we starting to get jealous? but the "we" now isnt the old "we" its the remains of the old "we"..u might think that u didnt forget u might think we're still the same old same old...u might think im thinking too much..u might...nvr considered that now...we dont even call each other friends...we call each other...the primary six past...maybe now all u can remember is the name...u forgot...you forgot our faces...u forgot who we are...fine maybe u can go friendster and check out our picture to refresh ur memory but...u cant refresh the memories we used to have together...u cant recall what we liked or what we are like...maybe u might think...but i might have just forgotten what ure like...or what u liked...but i remembered...although i might have a bad memory but i know...i know...im positive....i still can remember even the feeling...can u?
laz year... i used to do my things at home and even when im in different places as u guys..i always always thot of u guys every single time i did smth interesting...it was like..."im going to tell them tomoro about this!" although i didnt rmb to tell u guys but i always thot abt u guys...when im alone...at home...when something funny happens...when smth reminds me of u guys....so many things...do u think abt what i thot abt as often? i promised myself nvr to tell anyone i thot of u guys so often but now..since i really want to tell u guys...u guys were like closer than sisters to me...so close...sometimes it hurts...u might think...im crazy...u might think im missing u guys..and yes i am...but im enjoying my life here now...and ure enjoying ur life there...we're both enjoying lives...in totally separate places....move on move on u might think...dun think bout the past dun think u might think...sec sch is much much more better and more fun and more exciting than pri sch...u might think...i really wondered if u guys really did look back...as we drift...we start to doubt...and for once i wanna be frank...did u guys really miss us? or were u juz saying it without meaning? i really wonder...i noe...right now u either wanna punch me for doubting u or u really want to tell me u really did miss us...is tt also without meaning? i cant believe as much as i did laz time i cant trust as much as i did b4 i cant do things the same anymore...cuz some of us...or some of u...arent caring at all...and now...i already consider u as only...a friend no more buddy buddy no more watever...u might think now...u dun need me...ur life is there now...ur past friends are smth u dun need...and u urself consider me as only a friend...but i even if i told u ure only a friend...nth more...i noe myself deep down to be honest...ure always my buddy...although not tt close but u will always always be remembered by me...so if ure sad...and when u finally realize...ur p6 friends used to be such great ppl..and when u finally compare it the other way around...you can always...come back to us and say hi...lets be friends - again...
-forever friends, ger